Lucy
I’m Lucy (she/her), living with the chronic disease Endometriosis, getting my official diagnosis after years of medical gaslighting and chronic pain. As an activist, I’m involved in feminist and decolonial groups, and I write poetry in my free time.
Carrying pain
I carry
pain
inside me
carry it with me like an invisible burden on my shoulders
or does the pain
carry me
when it pulls my feet away
when it makes me curl up
when it takes my breath away
makes me freeze
takes me over completely
when I’m lying in bed
when I’m at my desk
when I’m in the tram
wherever it wants
moments
without breath
silent
only deafening pain
and yet
there is a deeper pain
ever-present
a pain born of traces of violence
traces of him
and him
and HIM, too
traces of violence
that I see
every day
that only
I see
I refuse to look away
from the pain
of others
pain
carries me
through the world
and I carry
chronic pain within me
but I carry even deeper within me a loud cry for justice
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