Overthinking Physically

Sophie Schoenberg

I am Sophie, 24, and I am from Germany. For about 4 years now, I have been studying and working in Rotterdam as a social and documentary Photographer. In my own work, I deal mostly with topics of care, feminism, and social issues. I myself have been diagnosed with Adenomyosis and more recently with adhd. In a strange way, I am learning more about how these two things strangely seem to be connected and make daily life sometimes very challenging.

Overthinking Physically

It is a constant journey of self-improvement, most importantly,

to not give up along the way.

When do I feel most alive? When I take good risks, getting out

of my comfort zone, traveling, exploring

No, I do not often ask for help

There is no time to get sick

Now I have to start over, all the progress is gone

‘’Hugs’’ they make me feel safe

Forming boundaries is not easy but vital to protect our piece of

mind and body , the more we let people step all over us the more

we loose ourselves

Loving myself- it does not always come naturally

I just have to be patient I do not trust my body it seems to work against me

Overthinking physically- a poem

Feeling hopeless

I feel guilty when I do not ‘’work’’ the way I should

Nature makes me feel calm, I want to feel the fresh and clear

air against my skin and the grass below my feet

Losing somebody I love but also possibly myself

Dancing makes me feel free- I just let my body be and

let the music carry me anywhere it wants

The smell of rain

Taking trains further away always makes me feel melancholic

Being at home is mixed with feeling safe and trapped in my old
emotions

Music makes things either very light or extra heavy

Being with people I love

Somebody I love misusing my trust,

closing the door to my thoughts and feelings

Talking, and even more talking, letting go

Friendships have to be nourished

I want to sleep as long as possible

All the changes

More challenges

My body is smart, it remembers and reminds, it wants the best