No strength / Nemam snage

Mima Stanulov

Mima Stanulov (b. 1988, Zrenjanin, Serbia) is a poet based in Amsterdam writing from within the constraints of myasthenia gravis, a condition that weakens the body and disrupts even the slightest acts of endurance. Her work is shaped by fatigue, instability, and the ongoing negotiations between effort and collapse. Through this lens, she writes about motherhood, the body, and inherited narratives drawn from Slavic folklore, tracing where strength fails and where it is redefined. 

Her poems have appeared on several Balkan literary platforms and in the collections

Haos ožiljaka (Librum Studio), Paket aranžman and Distorzija (PPM Enklava). She is currently completing a poetry manuscript in Serbian. 

Nemaš snage

nemaš snage
dete da podigneš
presvučeš
muža poljubiš
sebe saslušaš
skuvaš supu
nemaš snage ni za razmišljanje
množenje i deljenje
proveravaš na digitronu
listanje Instagrama
zamara ti oči
nemaš snage za tuđu sreću
a ni muke
svi su bez bora
preduzetnici i umetnici
osim tebe
nemaš snage da podigneš tuš
iznad ramena
zaboravila si šta je
krema šampon brijač
odlažeš za bolje dane
možda sutra
od ponedeljka
svanuće nekad
nemaš snage da čitaš
napišeš stih
protumačiš pesmu
piješ limunadu sa velikog ekrana
pola gutaš
pola prosipaš
nemaš snage ni za zavist
vidi nju
ona leti vozi skejt
zimi snoubord
ujutru diže pedeset iz benča
preko dana sebi platu
vikendom u izlasku
sve drugarice tanka desetka
minić i nabubrelo poprsje
a ti
ulegla na kauču
nemaš snage
ni da prdneš


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no strength

no strength                          no strength

to lift your child                   to read

change their diaper                  

kiss your husband                    write a verse

be gentle with yourself              make sense of a poem

cook soup                            

                                     you drink lemonade

no strength                          from the big screen

even to think                        

                                     half you swallow

multiplication and division          half you spill

you check on a calculator            

                                     no strength

scrolling Instagram                  even for envy

tires your eyes                      

                                     look at her

no strength                          she rides a skateboard

for other people’s joy               snowboards in winter

or misery                            

                                     in the morning

everyone is wrinkle-free             she bench presses fifty

entrepreneurs and artists            

                                     during the day

everyone but you                     she earns her salary

no strength                          on weekends

to lift the showerhead               she goes out

above your shoulder                  

                                     all her friends

you’ve forgotten                     a perfect ten

cream                                

shampoo                              miniskirts

razor                                and full breasts

everything gets postponed            and you

for better days                      sunk into the couch

maybe tomorrow                       no strength

starting Monday                      even for a fart

someday

it will dawn

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